We cannot go out of the body because we are
not in a body.
The body is in us.
What is within is our physical, mental, and emotional
makeup, noted and navigated (mostly unconsciously) by our
attention. But just who is doing the noting and navigating?
No one in particular. As mystical or transpersonal experience
demonstrates, there is no discrete entity inside, no tenured
tenant, no independent inner dweller, but only the personification
-- or, more precisely, the personalized dramatization --
of the movement and focal coalescing of attention through
our body and mind. Hearing occurs, awareness of hearing
simultaneously occurs, and “I” presumes to be
the “hearer,” when in fact there is, as the
Buddha taught, no one inside doing the hearing.
What we essentially are -- with regard to our apparent
embodiment -- makes its appearance not in a body, but as
a body. This does not necessarily mean that we literally
are our body, but that our body expresses rather than contains
us.
But what about OOBEs (out-of-the-body experiences)? Does
not their existence prove that we are in a body? Not necessarily.
They simply show that substantial dissociation from the
physical is possible at times other than when we are sleeping.
We don’t then so much exit from the body as let the
body exit from us; we are then conscious, but not embodied-conscious.
The sense of separation that characterizes an OOBE may be
simply that, a sense of separation or tangible apartness,
perhaps triggered by the settling of attention in zones
of the brain that are ordinarily activated through intense
shock or stress. Many of those who endured horrendous abuse
as children have said that they watched the violation of
themselves from somewhere close to the ceiling. Pure survival.
Though some OOBEs arguably occur beyond or even independent
of the physical body, the majority of OOBEs may simply be
taking place in subtle, or seemingly non-physical, regions
of the bodymind, registering their presence through the
very same mechanisms as “ordinary” experience.
Many OOBEs may also be lucid dreams (dreams in which one
knows that one is dreaming) that are only partially lucid
and therefore are taken literally, as though one, for example,
is indeed standing a few feet away from one’s sleeping
body, rather than simply dreaming that one is doing so.
According to various wisdom-traditions, at death the body
is shed, dropped, let go of, but we, or something resembling
us, persists. The physical dimension of the body drops off
-- or is radically deconstructed -- at death, and we, so
the transpersonal story usually goes, ordinarily feel lighter
and freer for a while, as if bodiless, but before very long
typically assume another bodymind, perhaps more rarefied
than our earth-bodymind, but nonetheless as seemingly real
as the body we had in our just-departed life was to us.
And so we apparently move -- or are irresistibly moved --
through dream-like realms pulsating with the fleshed-out
consequences of our life’s dominant habits and hungers,
as well as with the possibility of a truer life. Sooner
or later, the story continues, those longings of ours that
are less than our longing for full awakening inexorably
draw us toward another round of waking-state physical embodiment
-- unless there is unqualified recognition that all that
is occurring is but dreamplay -- thereby mechanically fulfilling
the current blueprint encoded throughout “us”
both by our needs and by what we are doing with those needs.
But we don’t have to die to experience this process.
It’s happening right now, even as we dream that we
aren’t dreaming.
We are what we are seeking, but our attention is usually
elsewhere, enslaved to the mindset that makes a goal out
of what is already the case. We’ll look anywhere but
inside our looking. How can we find What-Really-Matters,
when we never truly lost It? Call it God’s Joke. What’s
uncorked by getting the joke is the realization that we
have been doing, among other things, some very serious dreaming,
pretending we are the roles we play in our dreams, especially
the role that features “our” body.
The key is to witness -- and, at the same time, unguardedly
feel -- our body with unmuddied attention, not from a mentalized
or compartmentalized distance, nor from a supposedly higher
consciousness (which makes just more distance, however spiritually
correct it may seem), but directly, letting awareness and
sensation meet with minimal mediation or buffering or sedation.
A rare subtlety is called for here, along with a willingness
to microscopically explore the edge of the edge. Perceive
your body from a place of no-distance. This, done deeply
and without rehearsal, helps us to navigate toward the very
heart of primordial vitality and openness.
To thus feel our body, to sense its multileveled energetics
and deep structures with such care, is an art in which compassion,
patience, and the spirit of exploration all coexist. In
the map-eluding Wonderland that the body “becomes”
when we thus feel it, we meet God in the flesh, God-as-flesh.
Then our physicality, in intimate embrace with wide-open
yet still finely-tuned awareness, becomes an embodiment
of the Source of the body. God incarnate.
This is simultaneously no big deal and mind-blowingly real.
Eventually, we feel-intuit God not only with little amoebic
extensions of ourself, but with our entirety. Such feeling-intuiting
is not a matter of being inside or outside our physicality,
but rather is about letting our whole being, even in its
densest or most seemingly solid dimensions, resonate and
dance with God. The ultimate participatory act.
The body asks only to be loved, lived, and illuminated.
The body is not some separate mass, but is continuous --
and not just elementally -- with all that is. The body is
precipitated Being, Light incarnate, prismed into form.
It is not just matter. (And for that matter, matter is not
just matter.) The body is not a burden with which we’ve
been saddled. It is not an obstruction to realizing God.
We need to shift from having a body to being a body, and
from being a body to Being. Even when the body dissolves
in ecstasy or deep peace, it still exists as God’s
Body, forever pregnant with form.
In permitting a fuller, saner embodiment of our essential
nature, we make possible a life for ourselves that is of
benefit to all beings, regardless of our moods and circumstances,
regardless of the dramatics of purification. In this, we
develop a radical intimacy both with what dies and with
what does not die.
Embodiment arises, unexplainably and with hyperbole-shattering
import and beauty, seeded with an evolutionary imperative
that makes possible the eventual emergence of self-organizing
and ultimately self-conscious structures through which suffering’s
myriad classrooms can become places of healing and Homecoming.
All the worlds are here in this very moment, dreamily mandala’ed
together, their common key floating in the open secret of
incarnation’s flesh-dance. Know your body without
using your cognition, except perhaps as an aide in initial
scouting scans. Allow intrinsic awareness to tour and explore
your body until it is obvious that your body is not yours,
but is simply Energy, Consciousness on the move, elementally
and feelingly and paradoxically continuous with all that
is.
It is crucial that we not only love what outlives this body,
but this body also, for it too is a weaving of the Real,
a unique flowering whose rise and beauty and singularity
ache to be known before its demise.
This piece has no end. Nor does the body.