Eroticism is obsessive interest in sexual opportunity or
possibility.
Just about everything that catalyzes or promises sexual
stimulation and satisfaction is but an object for its calculating
eye, something to buy a share in, something to package and
profitably replicate, something to hot-wire genitalia and
thoughts to, something to exploit.
Eroticism makes an idol out of pleasurable excitation,
thereby bringing about addiction to whatever maximizes --
or once maximized -- such excitation. This intensifies not
only our distress, but also our urge for release, especially
the release of orgasm.
However, this release, whatever its marketing, is neither
ecstasy nor liberation, but only exaggerated relief, a discharging
not of distress itself, but rather of the branchings of
distress. It is akin to the relief felt when an extremely
tight pair of shoes is at last removed. Repeatedly putting
the shoes back on so to later have -- no, necessitate --
a pleasurable release is the essence of eroticism.
Understandably, eroticism is a popular refuge for us, given
its power to distract us from our suffering, especially
through its hands-on capacity for the discharge of tension
via sex. Eroticism keeps us in heat, neurotically available
for sexual activity, just as tightly bound to sexual possibility
as anxiety is to threatening possibility.
Eroticism, with our easily-bought cooperation, keeps our
sex center open for business as a psychological garburetor
and tension-dump, as well as an entertainment complex bulging
with steamy distraction and dreamy drama.
Eroticism is but unilluminated lust polluted by desperation
in hope’s clothing. It is kept on the burner by our
very urge for release from its contractedness and underlying
pain. Over and over again, we seek release through sex from
our craving to have sex, emptying ourselves of our eroticized
craving even as we strengthen and complicate its roots,
ever looking for a better pair of tight shoes.
That is, we crave getting rid of the intensity of sexual
desire itself, feeling ourselves unable to tolerate its
fleshed-out presence, even as we force-feed it again and
again, even as we think it full.
With numbing regularity, we tend to eroticize ourselves
into a position where we have to have some sort of release,
some sort of orgasmic payoff, some sort of semi-blissful
sedation, which only deprives us of the very energy that
we need in order to truly investigate the source of our
distress.
Eroticism promises Happiness, but real sex begins with
Happiness.
Eroticism is but visceral-mental technology for tension-release
through sex. Real sex is spontaneous play, needing no distress
for its intensity, no preconceived stimulation for its passion,
no fantasy for its ecstasy, no strategy for its depth. Sex
for conscious lovers may include intense stimulation at
times, but this is created not by conflict or mere friction,
but instead arises as an utterly natural byproduct of their
love-play. They already feel good; they are not expecting
sex to make them feel good. They are not suppressing their
being and making a goal or grail out of release, for they
are already released, already at ease, already in embrace
with the heart of their desire, already consciously and
willingly consumed by their passion’s fire and light.
By reinforcing the must in lust, eroticism cheapens sexual
desire, stripping it of much of its natural spontaneity
and expansiveness, injecting it with compensatory fantasy.
As such, eroticism is an abuse of imagination. If we need
to fantasize in order to have “good” sex, then
we are not truly interested in sex, but rather only in a
mind-game whose purpose is to maximize pleasurable release.
Sex does not need mind in order to function, and in fact
will not flow fully and freely if thoughts and fantasies
are allowed to intrude into and dominate its domain. The
only useful use of mind during sex is that involving psychic
communion between lovers; this requires an expansiveness
and naked openness of mind, in contrast to eroticism, which
is but a contraction of mind, a neon theater of dark dramatics,
crawling with pornographic abstraction.
But what happens to eroticism when sex is no longer gone
to mind? What becomes of eroticism when Happiness is not
the goal, but the foundation? It becomes the playful expression
of sexual desire, its face that of longing, not a tense,
ambitious longing, but an ecstatic, open-eyed longing, an
achingly sweet wanting to share our depths with our lover
through flirtatiousness and sexplay that is as loving as
it is lusty, as subtle as it is succulent, as free of mind
as it full of ever-fresh wonder.
The point is not eradicate eroticism, but to illuminate
it, to free it of desperation and egoic agendas, so that
it might outgrow itself, becoming but available energy,
cutting new, life-giving channels, reestablishing our embrace
with our Eternal Lover.