This
heart-aching, so sharp so sweet so bottomless, both shatters
and reassembles me. Such terrible beauty, such fathomless
yearning, such exquisitely painful gratitude. Endless is this
beauty. Upon its shores I break and spill, emptied of the
familiarity that self-centers my days and ways.
So very soon we are gone, like dreams vanishing before
morning habits. Did we leave a mark? Only wingprints in
endless sky, tracing evaporating goodbyes. Tombstones soon
but stardust. Life is our signature, scrawled by the infinitely
varied shape-takings of the Eternally Real. Such raw beauty,
beauty to die for, beauty both to bow to and to be, beauty
that both outlives and is us.
Death
makes Life worth living. Death makes Beauty unspeakably
obvious. Death makes Love unsurpassably important. Death
wakes us up. What better ally could we have than Death?
Death gives all the same opportunity. Death leaves no one
out.
Life is, among other things, a Near-Death Experience. The
passing of all things breaks our heart open to what matters
most of all. Only through intimacy with Death do we find
intimacy with the Deathless.
Gazing into soft blue sky, dissolving in its boundless
embrace, cradling each of its clouds, whether weeping or
thundering or dancing. Beauty beyond beauty coupling with
undisturbable peace, through their succulent embrace revealing
-- not explaining, but revealing -- that each moment contains
all moments. This the deep lovers cannot help but recognize,
as they die into Joy, surrendering their all to the Beloved
until they are but clearings for that One. Naked openness,
owned by none and belonging to all.
Avoiding Death kills us. Are we not, when we truly tire
of doing time and redecorating our cells, dying to live?
Dying to really live, to fully live? Dying to stop pretending
we are not pretending? Dying to at last enter and fully,
fully embody the Life we were born to live? Such dying is
but birth, a labor of love, a making room for a deeper Life.
The tenderest upstart green cracks and splits open the concrete
sea upon which we are shipwrecked. The messy Ecstasy of
birth unravels our straitjacketed identity. We bleed and
soar, waves breaking on ever-virgin shore, dying into the
Undying.
Silence is our witness. Silence has seen it all. Silence
cradles our pain until its ache wakes us.

Death doesn’t happen to Life. Death serves Life.
The beauty of it all, the hyperbole-transcending majesty
and wonder of it all, both brings us to our knees and wings
us. We go from survival to living, and from living to being
lived, and from being lived to Being, losing everything
along the way except what most matters. Loss breaks open
the heart, dissolving its armoring. Loss gives Beauty Divine
depth. Death is the mother of loss.
The blue fire of the dying poet’s eyes makes ruggedly
transparent art of his ravaged face. He cries out, his hoarsely
impassioned words the last sigh of a vagabond wave, seafoam
dying on some midnight beach. His freedom is in having no
choice. His love empties his mind, and leaves his body see-through.
His final poem is an infinitely sadhappy smile as he freefalls
into Death.
And what is his message for us? Let go, let your heart
break, let your life be Beauty made visible, let all things
awaken you, let your life be Poetry, the music of Truth,
the epiphanously idiosyncratic soulsong of significance.
And all the words die so, so soon in an avalanche of Silence,
their sound and meaning and audience gone. But how they
danced in their bright sliver of a moment! And how we danced
and loved and wept and blazed in our brief time!
The door is, as always, already open. Openness awaiting
openness. The invitation that will not go away. We are dying
to live. Let us not wait any longer. Let us do what it takes.
There are not higher stakes.